As days pass by, hope for better tidings, wans... I know it is quite unlike me to be sad about things i could not have... but as the years go by, i feel the frustration growing gradually... I feel like m trapped, by circumstances, by deeds, by words unsaid... i m not sure why i m having such a rotten time.. i knw i m responsible for half of it. i do own up and take the responsibility for things which have gone wrong...
I am responsible. But that does not mean... i suffer endlessly... i need a break! am tired of waiting... oh blog of mine...do u want me to be a cribber every day? dont u want to see me happy? i want to...and i try...but as days go by, hope is all i hang on by. hope is all i have.... and i just hope better times come visiting...and that too fast!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
mid summer...
This blog has become something like a seasons catalogue... The cool January has given way to june...
The rains havent started yet. Just being elusive... there was a drizzle yesterday...and then again nothing today other than the clouds rolling in...
It feels strange that the Summer Solstice just came and went ...but the days still tend to be long...may be it is because work is boring... and testing at times...
I have been on a job hunt...which again plays hide and seek like the elusive rain...and leaves me wondering why it is that life turns out to be such a struggle...
the jelous me looks around and seeing people getting placed ever so often... and me still stuck out here...or is it jus that time stands still just for me? or is it because i hate this soo much that i feel like time is standin still????
I would not know...untill i m out of this fix
The rains havent started yet. Just being elusive... there was a drizzle yesterday...and then again nothing today other than the clouds rolling in...
It feels strange that the Summer Solstice just came and went ...but the days still tend to be long...may be it is because work is boring... and testing at times...
I have been on a job hunt...which again plays hide and seek like the elusive rain...and leaves me wondering why it is that life turns out to be such a struggle...
the jelous me looks around and seeing people getting placed ever so often... and me still stuck out here...or is it jus that time stands still just for me? or is it because i hate this soo much that i feel like time is standin still????
I would not know...untill i m out of this fix
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
winter
The last time i came here was when the sun was shining bright...The summer is long gone now...so are the fallen leaves and the past.
.. it is a brand new year...a brand new job which sucks big time and a brand new me?
another tall dream...the me is never new. the me does welcome the new...but somewhere along the line, the me just hangs on to the past, not ready to let go...but this year, i did that.
i said good bye to my mobile phone which has been my bosom companion for the last couple of years... 4 infact...a relic from those 'unforgivable' days....
by letting go of it, i have in a way ushered in the new... or have i?
.. it is a brand new year...a brand new job which sucks big time and a brand new me?
another tall dream...the me is never new. the me does welcome the new...but somewhere along the line, the me just hangs on to the past, not ready to let go...but this year, i did that.
i said good bye to my mobile phone which has been my bosom companion for the last couple of years... 4 infact...a relic from those 'unforgivable' days....
by letting go of it, i have in a way ushered in the new... or have i?
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